我想看這個。
Love is not judging.
Today is often refer to as the time of narcissism. Thanks to communication technology development such as Internet and liberal social, political conditions, people began to speak out. In the streets, they continuously talk on their mobile phones. Online, they run their own show on their blogs and personal webpages. They refuse to be in the backstage but step up as stars of their own show. Ironically, people feel alone because nobody listens but everybody is talking his or her own story.
“My injury is greater.” “My demand is more urgent.” “I am the nicest and loneliest.” “I had the hardest life.” However, nobody knows because there is no person available for listening. Everybody feels dejected. As there are more and more ways to communicate, people become more isolated. It is the tragedy of the narcissistic 21st century.
They want someone to say you are important, to accept themselves “as is” without judging and to listen. They want unconditional love.
Each and everyone thinks “I can’t love someone unconditionally, but I want someone to love me that way!” Therefore, there is no such person.
People are taunted by others’ opinion. “I need to get good grades, go to a good school, have a good job, live in good neighborhood, earn more money, be more fashionable and beautiful, lose weight, look younger, grab attention, and meet someone with all the right conditions.” The list is endless. When does it stop?
The only possible solution to this problem is to become an unconditionally loving person first. I have to love myself first and tell myself that it is okay not to be perfect. It is okay to fail. It’s okay to be ugly, but actually I’m not ugly. I’m beautiful and I’m doing fine.
Of course, it is not as easy as it looks. However, a person who can truly oneself will be able to love others. True communication becomes possible between people who know how to love themselves.
“Pretty Insun” is about loving oneself unconditionally and communicating with others heart to heart.
In the story, people who endless thirst for love and recognition will realize that true love does not exist anywhere but inside oneself. They will learn that the greatest, incomparable beauty reside in inner self.
Who can throw a stone at her?
A girl was abandoned by her mother at birth and grew up under her grandmother. She served a few years in prison for killing her school mate accidentally. People see a scarlet letter on her. She is the sinner to them. She has the worst background one can have.
However, when you think about it? Who is sinless? And, who would not have bad backgrounds in the eyes of the better-off? What is sin? Who can throw a stone at her?
How can we become truly happy?
我想看這個。就算拍的非常差，就算大家都不能 act，就算悶死，我都想看。爲什麽？因爲就憑這個 summary，我已經感動了。我每一天都這麽想的，爲什麽他家不停的覺得自己最好，最可憐，最有義氣，有最好的 sense of justice。
所以，就算我討厭我都會最尊敬這個。
還有人懷疑我爲什麽那麽喜歡講 Death Note 嗎？
一樣的理由。
因爲清清楚楚的給大家看自己的想法和本能。
好久不見~
上次來是什麽時候啊？十一月？XD 對不起~ 有點忙， 但是大原因是我很懶。
有什麽發生嗎？
嗯。。。
我還是非常不喜歡開車~
好久沒有做過任何中文學校功課~
日校還好。。。合唱團沒有以前那麽好玩，我們唱得又挺難聽~
那個音樂課很無聊，沒用。。。
新的武館非常特別超好！地方好，師父們好，時間好，教法好~ ^___^
啦啦啦～
哇~
好久沒有來了, 但是還沒有忘我還有這個小地方^^
我沒有去中文學校好多次了>< 沒辦法了！今天一早考了SAT中文。 應該還可以吧～
找到一些新音樂，開心～
但是又有‘朋友問題’了 >< 真麻煩。
我好像越來越不適合現在的生活～
還好~
好像沒有了那麽多東西煩我，就沒有什麽要寫的 ^^()
這幾天什麽都不太想做- 功課，大學的 application- 我很不乖吧 >_>
但是我學校還表現得不太差~
其實，不知道爲什麽，我好像失去了我的西班牙文 T_T
我不喜歡開車 >< 還發現了，我每一次開車會自己 carsick，回來了會頭痛 =[
又發生了。
我已經決定了不要繼續讀CS，問題怎麽還在煩我？
我知道很晚了，說真的，我雖然可以把自己表現得很活潑， 但是我今年一直都很累，累到有時候都沒有力氣表現。 現在我可以睡就應該睡吧，但是又發生了。生氣， 煩惱，傷心，無可奈何的感覺：都不知道是哪一個，是全部嗎？
cherried angel (12:30:19 AM): ok
cherried angel (12:30:32 AM): explain your algorithm for magic square
zZbakachanZz (12:20:09 AM): look
zZbakachanZz (12:20:13 AM): i really dun have time right now
zZbakachanZz (12:20:16 AM): my mom’s pissed
cherried angel (12:30:56 AM): and mine isn’t?
zZbakachanZz (12:20:36 AM): as in she’s about to chuck me out of the house for not sleeping
cherried angel (12:31:15 AM): i have all the time in the world?
zZbakachanZz (12:20:43 AM): and she’s done that before
zZbakachanZz (12:20:55 AM): sorry….
cherried angel (12:31:35 AM): look, if you just gave that to me to correct it, for get it
zZbakachanZz (12:21:13 AM): i just think me comparing with urs would help me right now and it would be faster
zZbakachanZz (12:21:24 AM): seeing that time is needed at the moment rather than later
zZbakachanZz (12:21:34 AM): i didn’t
cherried angel (12:32:09 AM): i can’t do that, and even if i could i wouldn’t, and i thought you know that
zZbakachanZz (12:22:07 AM): i’m not asking u to fix it for me
zZbakachanZz (12:22:13 AM): = =
cherried angel (12:33:17 AM): then what the hell do you want?
cherried angel (12:33:20 AM): tell you what’s wrong?
cherried angel (12:33:21 AM): i don’t know
cherried angel (12:33:26 AM): because i don’t know what you’re trying to do
zZbakachanZz (12:23:11 AM): sd gjnaowhgoqwhg;
zZbakachanZz (12:23:14 AM): forget it
zZbakachanZz (12:23:18 AM): sorry i asked
我不想把名字拿出來，因爲這樣會再花我不想花的時間， 還有，簡簡單單，我累了。 但是， 告訴我啊，我做錯麽？我沒有說不願意幫他，我問他這個問題是要開始幫他， 如果我不知道他到底要用什麽 logic (algorithm) 那我不知道到底要那裏開始看。就算知道都不一定幫得到，但是不知的話，那小小的機會都沒有了。 是他要我的幫忙，我已經不太想再做功課，不想理CS的東西，但是看它是我朋友，這功課又要快做完，我幫他， 我幫他啊！！他憑什麽生我氣？！我不願意直接給她我的答案就可以發我脾氣嗎？？
看看之前的對話，我發現，一句 “please” 都沒有。
還有一個。
我今年每一次有什麽成功，我身邊的人不會說，“做的好！” ， 只會想，羚羚的成功怎麽幫得了我啊？Example: 我做完了功課。大家一知道，就叫我 “快點啊快點啊幫我幫我！！” 我的朋友什麽時候變得這麽自私啊？以前不是這樣的吧。我現在生活好像活得很有壓力， 沒有空氣- 不是什麽 college apps， 老師們， 家裏給的壓力，是我朋友給的。 不是因該相反的嗎？應該是朋友們把壓力趕走吧。
好久沒有寫東西了~
沒有什麽大改變。最近還是很懵懵的~
如果CS再這樣繼續下去， 我不讀了。 第一次這樣的放棄，但是放棄CS的原因很多很多，還有很有道理。繼續讀的原因只有一個： 就是不因該放棄的道理。但是我越想越覺得，如果有真正的好原因，無可奈何的話，放棄不一定是壞事。
哎呀~
這幾天吃得不太好~ 我有吃東西，但是吃之前和吃之後的感覺差不多。我覺得有一點點不舒服，但應該都是因爲不太開心吧~
都不知道什麽原因這麽死活人樣- 不對，我知道原因，但是原因不大，不因該有這麽大的影響的 ⌐.⌐ 這個原因我寫得出來， 其實已經開始寫了，但是要花時間和心機- 我現在沒有心情寫完它。
在RO跟著朋友打架- 醫他們- 很累，但是很好玩。
APUSH 都沒有這種問題。
我在APUSH也沒有什麽用- 這個我當時知道，身邊的人也知道，但他們都會支持我- 最起碼，不支持都會有禮貌。
CS真不一樣。
“你真笨，這種小事都不懂！”
“你不快點學些東西，死定了。”
“你要自己學，要不然我一不在你怎麽班？”
好，我認，這些字很有道理，但是用不用這樣說啊？對，沒錯，這是現代，大家也很熟, 但是我還是女孩- 還是人，人有感情的。所以，不能客氣點嗎？ 我不是要人 baby 我，但是如果每一次求人幫忙都要受幾句 “那有人像你那麽笨？！”- 我真的受不了。死了人才會相信一直這樣對人説話很傷心嗎？
好開心呀~
終于收到新 schedule 啦！！！ 現在活潑到不得了！！！ 哈哈~ 羚羚反生了！！
今天 CS 的 ｃｌａｓｓｗｏｒｋ 做得很順，但是功課就很不同－ 找了很多人幫，結果都是 Ｊａｓｏｎ 跟 Ｃａｎ 差不多幫我寫 =[ 明天要做的功課看起來好像也會非常痛苦啊～
羚羚，你要加油，快點學起來這個麻煩的 ＣＳ！！
